I went on a binge eating spree and I'm feeling totally heartbroken right now

For the past month or two, I’ve been eating clean (about 1500-1700 calories) and averaging 10,000 steps. I lost about 6 kilogrammes, felt better about myself, and all that. Obviously, I had 4 - 5 cheat meals in between, but nothing compared to my prior habits. I’m not sure why I absolutely lost control today, but I ate a whole chicken burger, fries, three packs of Lay’s chips, ice tea, and chocolates in one sitting. I ate about 3500 calories today. I had cheat meals two days ago, thus my weight was higher this morning. I believe I will lose all of my progress. It wasn’t even a good bingeing session, feeling completely sad right now.

It’s because you wish you hadn’t eaten the meal and are concerned that the food you just ate will immediately make you fat.

You’re scared about gaining weight, yet you can’t stop thinking about food. I understand how you feel because I’ve been there before.

You binge eat because you restrict your food intake. You want to compensate for your binge eating by undereating, which will only lead to further bingeing. You’re locked in a vicious loop, and you should start by not compensating for your binge eating; trust me, it won’t hurt you and will help you break free.
It is alright and natural to be upset, and it is normal to binge eat for those of us who restrict a lot. Don’t feel horrible, and love yourself unconditionally. If you want to learn more about some methods that helped me quit binge eating, check out the following:

My hypothesis is that you’re bingeing to satisfy an unmet emotional need or desire.

When you eat to satisfy your emotions, the food does not actually accomplish the goal. As a result, when you’re done with your binge, you still feel the same way you did before you ate, only now you’re bloated on top of your other troubles.

When you view food, what thoughts come to mind?

Is it a self-reward for accomplishment? Does it assist you get out of a foul mood, even if just temporarily?

Food has always been more than just sustenance for humans; it also carries emotions. Eating feels nice, and since you enjoy feeling good, you continue to eat.

However, feeling good comes at a cost - a bloated stomach at best, and the realisation that you shouldn’t have eaten so much, making you miserable at worst.

Food consumption may not always correspond to actual dietary requirements. I am aware of a struggle that some individuals have in their eating habits; they become accustomed to the feeling rather than the need to eat; this is habitual due to just growing used to it, or when your inner being is lonely, it develops a craving need to eat in order to overcome the loneliness. Finally, here we go again: sexual fantasies are frequently overly intense - this is similar to hypnosis in that it trains your consciousness to be elevated as if in a general dream state in order to take in more pleasure, so there we have it, a complex, but its fixations vary by individual.

Because you indulged in something you know is unhealthy. Emotionally and physically sick. Do you understand how I know? Because you’re already beating yourself up over it. Seek help from a professional. Find out what makes you binge eat in the first place. Good luck!

The grief brings forth unresolved emotional traumas and sufferings. You could be experiencing a void because you have not accepted or given someone a place in your life. Eating could be a way to fill the vacuum. The grief most likely reminds you of that person or scenario.